Monday, December 26, 2011

Last post on 2011

2011 is a terrible year for me. Nothing good actually happened to me this year. NPCC got into some problem and it destroy my reputation. Forcing myself to resign from my post. My family complain i spend too much time working. Major Project got groupmates who do not cooperate.

I am not at lost. I got people from "Siao Bang" and FA. Of course not forgetting my BFFs and good friend who support me when I am down. I do have friends around when I needed them.

Not surprised by anything which is happening around me. everything happen for a reason. I got no new year resolution at all. I think. i actually made a decision few days back and look at things in a different angle.

I will not hope for anything to happen but make things happen. Thanks 2011. giving me so much challenges. I will dye my hair to another colour for the new year.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

当我知道你们相爱



This video include english translation of the song.

[ti:当我知道你们相爱] [ar:何维健]
[00:19.17]还记得我们曾是彼此的回忆
[00:28.41]缺少了我们情侣关系的是你
[00:36.26]没结果的放弃忘不了逃避
[00:40.61]体验过的无数的浮躁爱情
[00:45.21]同意我在街道悄悄语问候你回忆
[00:50.63]发现已不是单身的你~Girl~
[00:55.34]我知道你们相爱
[00:59.38]有了开始有了未来
[01:03.88]在我心里放不下的也该是坏
[01:08.89]收拾好把它掩埋
[01:13.18]但我知道你们相爱
[01:17.78]我的心里泛起许多无奈
[01:22.41]这时候我该有个专注幸福
[01:27.24]我会不停的等待
[01:31.94]等待着未来
[01:41.65]缠密的箱子里一叠叠的回忆
[01:50.50]再好的思念释放以后就忘记
[01:58.32]没结果的放弃忘不了逃避
[02:02.87]体验过的无数浮躁爱情
[02:07.41]某一晚在街道悄悄语问候你回忆
[02:12.93]发现已不在眷念着你
[02:17.38]我知道你们相爱
[02:21.70]有了开始有了未来
[02:26.19]在我心里放不下的也该是坏
[02:31.28]收拾好把它掩埋
[02:35.64]可我知道你们相爱
[02:39.86]我的心里泛起许多无奈
[02:44.65]这时候我该有个专注幸福
[02:49.52]我会不停等待
[02:52.79]等待着未来
[03:10.13]
[03:23.05]某一晚在街道悄悄语问候你回忆
[03:26.11]发现已不在眷念着你
[03:30.44]我知道你们相爱
[03:34.87]有了开始有了未来
[03:39.45]在我心里放不下的也该是坏
[03:44.53]收拾好把它掩埋
[03:48.65]可我知道你们相爱
[03:53.17]我的心里泛起许多无奈
[03:57.73]每一个人都该有个专注幸福
[04:02.63]我会不停等待
[04:05.94]等待着未来

Sunday, November 20, 2011

New

I think promises do not work. I am looking forward to something and something else happen. Not that is unexpected but it happened too fast. I am not ready to accept. I did dream of this coming and I knew it will come but the news wasn't break by you.

Everything is new. Because of this NEW word, I couldn't get to sleep. Many things running in my mind. Like running a marathon. I think my part do not count anymore. I am sure after a few days, I will be okay.

Wishing everyone who have something new, well. How I wish I can spend 28th Dec with someone in mind.

Monday, October 17, 2011

Been awhile...

This may sound the same but yeah, it really been awhile from my last post. Never try to make myself busy but I am really busy for this while. Kind of like things keep popping up around me for me to handle.

Past months, been going to the airport for a few times. Sending people off. For example, my sister going Canada to work for a month, Sun Wei go back to china for good and Naiden go back after her service in Famous Amos for a year. Sheila also going back soon after a year of service here. Can't say that is sad for them to leave or happy for them to leave. It's like both of the feeling is there. They did a good job in helping us, managing the shop and all. Bringing laughter and fun to the shop. It's a kind of a special memories that will stay forever. I believe, we may not meet again but at least everyone will be remembered.

Before Naiden go back, people who cares actually asked what happen to me and Naiden. I am in no position to say but if she told someone, which mean she trust that person. Is kind of complicated. So I not going to talk about it. Haha!!

Well, feel like I been reminding myself of Stefenie again. Past months,been things about her. For example her birthday, her father's birthday and her mother's birthday. Before her parents birthday, is my birthday. The first time after 8 years in different relationship, celebrating without a girlfriend. I didn't realize till Jessica making fun of me.

Just came back from Genting for a short getaway. This time I went with a calm and relax mind but come back with sorrow feeling. Yeah, reminding of her again. When I get there, I just feel cold due to the weather. Going casino with my parents and trying to get my $5K. Everything started when I saw the hotel room. It remind me of a lot of things that we plan to do. Like going oversea together, having kid that I will train them to be army soldier, your future bedroom and all. Now, I am planning for a trip to Philippines with my colleagues.

Today is my father birthday. I think you have forgotten his birthday. Seriously many things happened. I found myself being immature in taking care of you. Didn't let you have chance to understand me more. Thanks to my pride, principle and discipline action. Was still wondering is it too late that I regarded? My family don't dare to speak of your name in front of me.

Hmmm...times really flies. 1 and a half month more, it will be a year broke up. Karen told me that I should wish her well. Hoping she will get someone better than I. The fact is she is telling me what I am thinking. But nevertheless, to me, whatever meant to happened will happen. I may not be able to forget you but I am slowly adapting to life without you.

By the way, I watched the movie that we wanted to watch on our first broke up. I should have insist on watching the movie. Then, maybe things won't turn out this way. Maybe you should watch it yourself. It is a good movie with good story line. If you don't know which movie, than never mind. It is meant to be a kind of memory to me for the first broke up.

OKAY, been talking too much about her. Come on, life need to carry on. kind of late already. Good night!!

Friday, August 19, 2011

It's me again?

When I start getting used to be busy, exam and holiday come knocking on me. Been busy with 5 project and all had been done. I got only 2 paper in this semester. NPCC competition coming. Need to plan for training dates. Look up courses in nearby Community Center(CC). Plan on taking up Hip Hop dance class or guitar class or maybe both.

Wanting to try scuba diver. Look up on Deal.com, found out that there is a promotion price and just attend 2 hrs course, can get international certificate for diving.

Few days back, my primary school friend's father pass away due to lungs infection. Finally get to chat with my primary schools friends on themselves. Found out that 2 of them getting marry, 1 become boss and 1 working. MH is going America soon. Due to his job. I didn't know most of them is working. I envy those who work and pay for their own car. I hope I do have the privilege too.

My work place, more and more people leaving. Leaving due to many reason. Contract up, going for further studies and getting sick of the job. I think I am leaving soon. Once I finish my school in Temasek Polytechnic.

I actually got emotional few weeks back and sms jy for comforting. Then, sms her some crazy msg. The feeling is getting bland but things that I worry for is her birthday, her mother birthday and her father birthday. In the end, I come to a conclusion. Best not to meet up of contact each other. May seem stubborn as usual but that will actually helped. Hope you enjoy yourself more.

Earning quite a lot this month. I don't think I going to celebrate my birthday. Going to use the money and sign up courses. Now I am damn broke! haha!!

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Brighter Than The Sun



PLAY THIS SONG WHILE READING THE POSTS, JUST ABOUT TODAY!! THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT!

(Verse 1:)
Saw me on the corner
Swear you hit me like a vision
I, I, I wasn't expectin'
But who am I to tell fate where it's sposed to go?

With it, don't you blink, you might miss it
See we got a right to just
Love it, or leave it, you find it, you keep it
Cuz it ain't everyday you get the chance to say

(Chorus:)
Ooooh this is how it starts
Lightning strikes the heart
It goes off like a gun
Brighter than the sun
Ooooh we could be the start
Just fallin' from the sky
Shining how we want
Brighter than the sun

(Verse 2:)
I've never seen it
I found this love I wanna feed it
You better believe I'm gonna treat it
Better than anything I've ever had cuz you're so damn beautiful

Read it, it's signed and delivered
Let's seal it, boy we go together like
Peanuts and paydays and Marley and reggae
And everybody needs to get a chance to say


(Chorus:)
Ooooh this is how it starts
Lightning strikes the heart
It goes off like a gun
Brighter than the sun

Ooooh we could be the start
Just fallin' from the sky
Shining how we want
Brighter than the sun

(Bridge:)
Everything is like a whiteout
Cuz we shika-shika-shine down
Even when the when the light's out
But I can see you glow

Got my head up in the rafters
Got me happy ever after
Never felt this way before
Ain't felt this way before

Swear you hit me like a vision
I, I, I wasn't expectin'
But who am I to tell fate where it sposed to go?

(Chorus:)
Ooooh this is how it starts
Lightning strikes the heart
It goes off like a gun
Brighter than the sun

Ooooh we could be the start
Just fallin' from the sky
Shining how we want
Brighter than the sun (2x)

Brighter than the sun (2x)

(Ooooh this is how it starts
Lightning strikes the heart
It goes off like a gun
Brighter than the sun
Ooooh we could be the start
Just fallin' from the sky
Shining how we want
Brighter than the sun) (3x)

Just About Today

Today title is Just About Today. Not going to talk about yesterday or tomorrow. Just going to talk about today. Haha!! kind of weird for me saying all that.

I finally pick up some courage and sms her again. Asking her out for a meal around her birthday. Seriously simply a small treat from me to her. I didn't expect she will call me. When I see her name appearing on my phone, I was shocked at the first sight but then, I was nervous of picking the phone up. It been awhile since I hear her voice. Felt delighted, happy and was smiling all the way today. I even have the patient to teach my colleague new things. She still brighten up my day!!

It was a short conversation. I was trying to act cool but I was smiling all the way in the conversation. She wanted to tell me that she is free and not free during that time. She have project deadline during that time. Some of the things she talk about, I seriously do not understand. I believe is jy giving out information. Came to realize that she read my blog. Was worry and felt sad too.

My mother prepared something for the family today. A new dish. It taste nice. Superciliously good. Most likely is because she called me. Of cause higher percentage is on my mother culinary skills.

The fact is, I am living well now. Still, think of you sometime. About things we done and place we been to. I seldom share my worries to others but temper a lot. I do not speak about myself to anyone. For example, my birthday. Friends that had known me for years should know but new friends, keep asking around for my birthday. They alway try to guess but none of them guess correctly. My manager keep pestering me to re-activate my FaceBook account. I was trying to keep thing thought on suspend for awhile longer but maybe the day will draw nearer soon.

Friday, July 08, 2011

All or Nothing



Baby, oh yeah, ooh, woah, yeah, oh

There wasn't anything I didn't love about you
You'd do some stupid things and I'd laugh at those too
And we went together like the summer in June
But who'd have known that it'd rain so soon

Thought I'd be the only one that'd make you smile
Thought I'd be the only one that'd really know how
But you showed me different and I know better now
I gotta get you out my system somehow

I replay it over and over again
You were my girl, now we ain't even friends
You could've been my all or nothing, all or nothing
Now to me you're nothing
Girl, you're nothing, now you're nothing

Put you on a pedestal, girl, I held you so high
Was never too good at finding the words to describe
Just how I felt for you but you know that I tried
But somehow we went and changed inside

You damn near were my everything you're still on my mind
But I'd rather be here all alone and I'm doing just fine
Gotta take it back to the days before we met
And live our lives as strangers again

I replay it over and over again
You were my girl, now we ain't even friends
You could've been my all or nothing, all or nothing
Now to me you're nothing
Girl, you're nothing, now you're nothing

I replay it over and over again
You were my girl, now we ain't even friends
You could've been my all or nothing, all or nothing
Now to me you're nothing
Girl, you're nothing, now you're nothing

December days, my summer turned to winter
When you went away, I can't help but wonder
Was he worth my pain?
You should know better and I should've too

And I cried, and you cried and we tried to make it work
Almost died while we tried, is that what our love was worth?
If I could do it again, I would be a better man
Now I'm living with just memories

I replay it over and over again
You were my girl, now we ain't even friends
You could've been my all or nothing, all or nothing
Now to me you're nothing
Girl, you're nothing, now you're nothing

I replay it over and over again
You were my girl, now we ain't even friends
You could've been my all or nothing, all or nothing
Now to me you're nothing
Girl, you're nothing, now you're nothing

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

Who's that girl




I was on the mic
Doing my thing on a friday night
Had the floor burning up just right
Everybody was bumping’, the club was jumping
Suddenly, you walked in
That’s when everybody stopped dancing
And I couldn’t stop myself staring
I couldn’t believe, No I couldn’t believe my eyes

I never thought I’d fall in love in a club
But now I seen you girl I can’t get enough
With you I know there’s no taking it slow
So can somebody please let me know

[Chorus]
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk), walk walk (walk), yeah

Before the night is through
Imma tell ya how I feel about you
And I know I got some work to do
To make you believe that you should be leaving with me

I never thought I’d fall in love in a club
The more I get of you, I can’t get enough
I won’t be letting you leave here alone
So can somebody please let me know

[Chorus]
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk), walk walk (walk)

(I wanna know) Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
(Who’s that girl) Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk), walk walk (walk)

[Eve]
E.V.E
I walk in the club it’s over
All them other chicks might as well move over
Wanna know my name then you gotta get closer
Eyes on you too wanna get to know ya
Lemme run it down for ya, I’m not easy
Some say caramel, you can call my evie
Wanna be the man in my life that please me
Gotta warn in, Once ya know me, you need me
Give you whip lash when I glide through the room
Five inch heals, watch how I move
Watch how I shake it to the beat, how I do
Know you wanna feel me, feel me shake it on you, yeah
The night could get crazy
But I gotta hold back, I’m a lady
Well who knows maybe I could be your baby
Be your baby, be your baby

[Guy]
Wo-oh
Wo-oh oh
Wo-oh
Wo-oh

[Chorus]
So, tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club

Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Tell me who’s that girl
Just walk walk (walk) in the club
Just walk walk (walk) in the club

How Much???

How much do other know about love? I cannot answer this question myself. To what extend will we do for love?

Few days back, went to have Korean BBQ Buffet at Tanjong Pagar. The food there is ok but the layout and atmosphere is not there. I went with zz, chng, pw and jy. Talk nothing much, and we went for Transformer 3 Movie. I don't really understand the movie but it is not a bad show after all.

Before going for the movie, we went for a snack session at MacDonald. Throughout the day with chng and pw, I saw something from them which I don't. By seeing that, I found out that I love her but didn't give her what she wanted. I was kind of emo during that time. Of cause thinking about her.

Was trying to ask her out but due to my schedule which is damn packed, got to drop the idea and because she have plan already. So I think is better not to mess up her plan. Mine objective is not to ask her out but to get someone to watch Monte Carlo with me. At the same time, I was wondering to myself, can i handle seeing her?

Life is so unpredictable. Nothing can goes as plan. Someone did tell me but I don't wish to mention names. The someone told me, she may not feel like meeting you. haha!! Maybe is true. I did wanted to give her something. My friend told me not to. Cause I am still behind the line where she have already crossover the border of our relationship.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

你走天桥我走地下道



阳光照耀不到你的心 像冰冷冷的地窖
把我心燃烧 也得不到拥抱
所有争吵 让一切的美好停在我的手表
慢慢的消耗 消失的每分每秒
把你握牢却捏碎了
真心无法做比较
就算我爱的很霸道
看你走上了天桥 我走下了地下道
你和我的爱情 就遗落在街角
看你越过分隔岛 我转进单行道
一路把过去甩掉 忘了曾经说过要一起到老
你说过要一起到老
你的声音我听不到
你的美好我看不到
你的爱情我等不到
所有争吵 让一切的美好停在我的手表
慢慢的消耗 消失的每分每秒
把你握牢却捏碎了
真心无法做比较
就算我爱的很霸道
看你走上了天桥 我走下了地下道
你和我的爱情 就遗落在街角
看你越过分隔岛 我转进单行道
一路把过去甩掉 忘了曾经说过要一起到老
我的眼睛已模糊失焦
在这条曾说过 要一起走的幸福大道
看你走上了天桥 我走下了地下道
你和我的爱情 就遗落在街角
看你越过分隔岛 我转进单行道
一路把过去甩掉 忘了曾经说过要一起到老

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Poem of Love Lost

You left me wondering around
No longer do I feel safe and sound
Stumbling on your favorite blue shirt
Cant keep in all of this hurt
I loved you so damn much
That now I cry for your touch
That no longer comes my way
No matter how much I beg and pray
Into my bed I crawl alone
Just to smell your colonge
It was a week ago since you said goodbye
But your smell still lingers by
It fills my body with such distress
Turning me into a total mess
You didnt think of what you would do to me
All you wanted was to be free
So me being stupid I opened the door
I let you through and cried even more
I closed it shut and heard you leave
Footstep heading away from me
You say that we werent meant to be
How do you dare say that to me
I hold my broken heart in my hand
Trying to keep it together the best I can
But no matter how much glue I use
I still cry and feel abused
For in this prison called my room
I keep memories of me and you
They haunt me every second of the day
I just wish this pain would go away
I gathered all your things today
Put them in a box and hid them away
But I kept something to make me smile
I found it and took it from the pile
A picture of you holding me
A memory of what we used to be

Monday, June 20, 2011

Universal Studio in Singapore


Went Universal Studio in Singapore (USS) with peers.
Start of the day, of cause a picture of the ball!!!

Bodyguard of the day.

2 beautiful pose from the ladies.

Castle of Far Far Away.

King's size man in King's seat

ZZ act cool only!! spoilt the picture lo!!

the poncho gang!!

ZZ trying to *BLOW* himself up.

Couple?? HAHA!! No or maybe not yet!!



*Shy*

Haha!! I also dunno what I am doing.

oh.....like model only!!

dunno wat zz plannig to do to me with his tongue out.

2 idiot!!
Majestic Anubis, Ancient Guardian

zz and I tot is a tea cup rided.

last rided of the day. a boring one.

段背山

Extra fireman,with the fat king and the cute witch!!


one of the very few grp picture

night verison of the ball!!

End the day with fireworks

Thursday, June 16, 2011

This week will be damn busy for me. now already getting tire and today is just wednesday. Going Universal Studio of Singapore with peers. Once planed to go with you. hmm....

Suddenly felt, without you around, I feel free. Not saying that you are stopping me or something but....cannot explain. Maybe getting use to singlehood. Still do miss you but nothing can change now. You are once very important to me. Maybe soon, you will get someone better, someone u can read his mind. Maybe, we will never see each other again. Seeing your friends, keep me thinking of you. How are you doing? How are you coping with your studies? Still worry about your pimple? I wonder. Thank you so much!! Love....

Wednesday, June 08, 2011